I am humbled.
I am humbled by my limitations. I am humbled by the dreams that I keep having to give up, and change, to fit my circumstances. To fit my brain. To fit my heart. To fit the life that I have at this very moment…The one that I subconsciously, and probably a little consciously,asked for… and yet didn’t really want. Sometimes your body and your heart can want two different things.
Its strange because, I see all of the things that got me to this moment. The patterns in my relationships, the patterns in my way of thinking. I get it and yet I am desperate to just go back. But then, I know. That I can’t go back. That the past, is right where it is. In my memory. Far gone and not possible to go back to.
Adapting to the new person that I am, which is probably who I’ve always been meant to be, is hard. Especially, when it doesn’t fit the dreams you always had for your life. When this one part of yourself — changes the entire plan.
But its also an opportunity.
There are three things you can do when life sends a wave at you. You can run from it, but then its going to catch up and knock you down. You can also fall back on your ego and try to stand your ground, but then it’s still going to clobber you. Or you can use it as an opportunity…to go deep, and transform yourself to match the circumstances.
And that’s how you get through the wave.
— Humans of New York